I realise it's been more than a month since my last post, so here's from where I left off. I had the opportunity to be home for 2 weeks over the holidays, see ALL my family, and be a part of of my Mom's wedding. The time went fast, but it was a great time of rest and enjoying where I grew up. Coming back to London is always a joy for me, as it's my home now, and where my heart is. We began an arts internship about 2 weeks ago, and it will run until the end of April. I have no interns in either of the tracks I co-lead (visual arts and barista) so it is a bit more chill for me. At the same time, I have a challenge for the upcoming exhibition because I do have the time now to produce. Something I really feel God is working on in this time is intimacy. Lets understand that is just a fancy word for knowing someone inside and out. God knows me better than I know myself; he made me and continues to grow me into the person he knows I can become. But if I don't continue to get to know him more, how can I trust that where he is leading me is good? Intimacy with God brings all sorts of necessary things; trust, identity, purpose, fulfillment, and much more. But most importantly, love. How can you love someone and express that love if you don't KNOW them. I feel that God has given me this time to really grow in intimacy with him, and this means being desperate. Desperate people will always go farther for the things they want/need than people who are comfortable. But this all comes with a weight. Knowing God more brings more responsibilities, to share the gospel, to love people, to disciple people, to walk in holiness. Every blessing comes with a weight. And even intimacy with God comes with more responsibility. At first I was afraid of this concept, but then I realized, that as I know him more, I trust and love and understand his love more, and that brings peace to my life. Am I satisfied just knowing God, or am I doing something about it? Am I willing to share the hope that changed my life, the grace that overwhelmed my sin, and the love that conquers all my days? Roots before fruits, is a phrase that I have heard often lately. God wants to work in our roots before we can carry the weight of fruits. He has to go deep to build strong foundations so that when the fruits come, our branches can hold them; and when the storms pass, we stand tall and won't give ground. This initiative is something we have to seek ourselves. God is always there wanting deeper relationship with us, but he will wait until we recognise our need for more of him. Get uncomfortable with where you are at, it makes life more interesting.
Jeremiah 17:8
"He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit."
